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better now lyrics by KAI ZEN

I’ve been missing the old me
That never saw you the way I do
Now, I wish I could take back
The night between friends I thought’s a dinner for two

‘Cause the light in your eyes
And the curve of your smile
And the shape of your shadow
Whenever you’re closer—

They creep in my mind
Like a shot through my heart
And I swear
I wish I’d known better

Than late-night delusions of falling in love
Coming undone at your every touch
Walking through doors
To your room where there’s no way out
But I know bettеr now, better now

My fatal mistake
Was using my colours on your monochromе paintings
When you didn’t want them
But how could I stop
When you treat me like the best damn thing?

Now the light in your eyes
And the curve of your smile
And the shape of your shadow
Whenever you’re closer—

They creep in my mind
And it hurts every time
That I swear
I wish I’d known better

Than late-night delusions of falling in love
Coming undone at your every touch
Walking through doors
To your room where there’s no way out
But I know better now, better than

Make-believe endings of us in my head
That one day you’ll wake up and love me instead
Losing myself when I know that I won’t be found
But I know better now, better now

I know better now, better than
Jumping then falling
And diving the deep end when you
You won’t take my hand
Than desperately, hopelessly
Praying you’re mine when I—
When I’m just a friend

When I’m just your friend

Who’s got late-night delusions of falling in love
Who’s coming undone at your every touch

But I know better now, better than

Make-believe endings of us in my head
That one day you’ll wake up and love me instead
Losing myself when I know that I won’t be found
But I know better now, better now

I try to be better now, better now
I swear I’ll be better now, better now